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Exams on Sundays

I’m done man we students need to get paid

Today’s blog is going to be a rant.

I WANT TO FUCKING SLEEP WHERE ARE THE FUCKING HOLIDAYS EVERYONE TALKS ABOUT!!?

I have said this before and I will say it again, us students deserve to get paid with all the bullshit we go through to get just one fucking degree. I have been working on 2 hours of sleep for the past month. I have started to forget basic tasks like eating. How does it feel now teachers? Thank you for the ill wishes of forgetting to eat because I didn’t do your useless homework! I have started showing my id literally everywhere like I enter a shop and pull out my college id! I am showing my metro card to the security guard at stations like why!!😭😭😭 And this bullshit has to continue till January. I have an exam on the fucking new year too. I have an exam on a fucking Sunday this week like what the fuck!!? One fucking day goddammit one fucking day! There was no rest on the previous weekends because of the shitload of assignments and practicals and now you are conducting exams? OH COME ON!

And you know what this is what diminishes a student’s motivation. No matter how much one love loves the subject, at the end it always comes down to exams and grades, a cycle that never ends. It’s all that is left to “study” for

I haven’t studies for tomorrow’s exam. I have just binged random videos for an hour and do I know anything about tomorrow’s exam? No. Great. I’m done I just want to eat and sleep I’ll see what to do tomorrow. It can fuck itself.

Song of the day!!

Here’s To Never Growing Up by Avril Lavigne. I loved it as soon as it started playing. I just love the beginning part.

Listening in class is helpful

I always wonder how I aced school without studying but it somehow makes sense

I am not the most disciplined always on top-of-academics person but there is one thing that I think every student should follow,- listen in class. I know it sounds like what every elder says, “Pay attention in class bla bla bla.” But seriously. As a person who has extreme difficulty in sitting still and memorising stuff, I get high scores mostly because of what I have listened in classes. I don’t attend many classes, especially those that I know are time waste. If the teacher is talking bullshit then I either get a proxy or plug in my headphones and finish my work. If the teacher is teaching, however, listen carefully. Even if you don’t participate in the discussions or make many notes, just listen with attention. I swear half of your exams can be written just by what you listen in class, given that your teacher is actually making sense. Because this allows you to know the context. If you don’t know what is in the exam, or during preparation, it isn’t exactly helpful. Listening in class is the best way to avoid being clueless. There have been multiple occasions when I have scored enough by elaborating what I have listened in class. So like yeah, listening in class is helpful.

Song of the day!!

Problems by DeathbyRomy. A song you can actually see the lyricism in.

Shitty exams

I just can’t deal with all of this shit anymore

I’m gonna be a jerk for saying this but bring back covid!! I’m sorry but I can’t deal with this shit anymore. I don’t want to see anyone’s face, I don’t want to go to new places and meet new people, I don’t want to write kilometers of senseless knowledge in my exams that will for sure contain out of syllabus questions. I have been studying hard but every time I attempt a sample paper, I find more and more weird ass questions that make no sense to me. They have 3 whole books to ask but they will decide to test something out of syllabus! Why!?

What hurts more is that these exams aren’t going to get us anywhere. In my country you need to give separate entrances for universities and these finals have absolutely nothing to do with your future. But because these have been going on since generations and were extremely important till 2 years ago, our reputation depends on it. Literally. Anything below 90% in these exams means that you are a useless burden to all.

That is what exams are in today’s world. There is no logic but you HAVE to run and win in the race because everyone is.

Song of the day!!

Nerves by DPR IAN. Sombre intro with reflecting, honest lyrics.

I forgot about my exam again😂

There is seriously something going on between me and political science

Ok so this one’s gonna be quick. I have an exam tomorrow and I have 20 big chapters in my syllabus. Am I prepared? Not at all. Why? Because I thought the exam is day after tomorrow but my laptop screen just lit up with a reminder that it’s rather tomorrow. It’s currently 9:30p.m here and my exam is at 7:30 tomorrow morning and considering I don’t even know what is in the syllabus, I am fucked. I called up my friends laughing coz I seriously don’t know what to do. They thought I was crying but no bitch I was laughing! I still am, hysterically!! I also have to tell my mom and oh she is gonna be so pissed💀. Interesting thing, it’s my political science paper, the one subject that brings the most gossip.

Song of the day!!

You Might Not Like Her by Maddie Zahm. A wistful song about changing over time I want my younger self to listen. Absolutely adore the theme and how the vocals have been incorporated perfectly.

Workload, self-care, wounds, & discounts

Another light blog I wrote solely to vent what has been happening recently so bear with it. ㄟ( ▔, ▔ )ㄏ

These days I have a heavy workload. Projects, notes, exams, college entrance preparation, internship- it’s a lot. I don’t even have time to breathe at this point tbh. I am never on a break except when eating and completing my daily chores. My mind is continuously thinking of what I have to do next. But somehow, I am not stressing much. Idk if it’s because of my emotional numbness, or defence mechanisms, but I am not panicking. I am…alright. I am handling things well. And I am actually kind of enjoying it too. It makes me feel like a busy person everyone wishes to be. I have downloaded a self care app recently and I list down all my tasks in the morning. I like checking them off. It’s nice. I have a big to-do list and tbh having all the things you need to do written down is of great help. It lets me know where I stand when working.

Speaking of studies, school’s almost finished. No more of going to the place I went everyday for years. No more of those shenanigans I used to pull with my friends in classes. We will only go for exams and paper distribution now. School’s over. We’re gonna enter the outer world.

Also, I cut my finger in the noon while slicing a lemon. It was a small cut, but deep enough to bleed like a flood. I just sucked it for a while thinking it will stop but 10 minutes later, it was still dripping. Annoying. I put a band-aid and it turned red instantly.

And also, I got new headphones! My ear pods broke so I will give them for repair, but I also ordered myself a new pair of headphones because I just wanted to have one. Plus they were very cheap because of Black Friday sale. And why would I miss an awesome deal on electronics? I mainly wanted them because my eardrums ache due to ear pods when producing music because they are literally inside my ears. Headphones won’t give me that problem, and they look cool af!

Song of the day!!

How It’s Done by Kash Doll, Stefflon Don, Kim Petras & ALMA. A power-packed track with different vocal styles integrated in a fast-pacing rythm.

A step forward

Okay everybody so remember when I applied for an internship the previous month? I got it. So welcome the new content writer of a nationwide ngo! (Someone please shout SLAYY for once!)

Among so many candidates, only 4 of us were chosen. We had an orientation yesterday and along with all the details, we were also told that a leader will be carefully selected for every team. And gues who is the leader for mine? ME! So welcome the head content writer of a nationwide ngo! I already had this feeling. Maybe it was my intuition or maybe even manifestation.

I worked for this internship wholeheartedly on my own and really wish to complete it on a well note. After such a long time of not knowing anything and seeming to be lost, I want to be the best for once. I was already prepared for my tasks as the team leader in school(didn’t know anything yet) and I come back to switch on my phone and see them listed there under my name. Let me just take a moment of self appreciation and sprinkle some glitter and say “Knew I’m da best!”✨ I also received messages from students of previous batches who claimed that the core team (president and vps) gave them my contact for assistance. I have all the official contacts, team details, etc. and I feel rejuvinated. It may not be as big of a deal but for me it is a step further into a better future. Because it is me. I mean, read my blogs and note how lost I am. So yeah, WHAT THE DAMN HELL!!

There is a major hiccup though. This is a 6 month internship and I have finals in 2 months. The internship, if needed, will be readjusted to complete my work duration so I hope it all goes smoothly. And y’all better be ready for a few more blogs about my boring rants because I definitely am gonna talk about it.

Also, can anyone please tell me if I embarrassed myself when I asked a now-obvious-then-confusing question at the orientation and the core team laughed!?😭😭😭

Now, I am sick, I have to work for the internship, and I have an exam tomorrow. Being sick I can manage. Internship work I am managing well too. What the fuck do I do about my exam!? I can’t understand anything like what do you mean that there is a specific therapy for existential crisis!?😭😭😭

Song of the day!!

Dying on the inside by Nessa Barrett. Such pretty vocals with headbanging drums. Me all the time but especially during exams.

Maths (¬_¬ )

😒😒😭😭😒😒😭😭

In my country, students get to choose among science, maths and social science subjects to study further in last 2 years of school. I opted for the social science subjects and left science and maths because I couldn’t really understand them. I like studying psychology, sociology, etc. I have been so content without maths for the past 1.5 years. Now I have to prepare for college entrances in which maths will also be tested. No matter in which field you are, you have to qualify the maths test prepared on the basis of what the senior classes are being taught. This comes as a disadvantage to students like me who don’t have maths. Today I studied this gruesome subject for 2 hours and that time was enough to remind me how much I hate it. I hate it a lot. Too much. I DON’T WANT TO STUDY MATHS! I was absolutely happy without it and now I have to solve problems that aren’t even mine nor did I ask for them😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

Song of the day!!

Left and Right by Charlie Puth & BTS Jungkook. A fun pop song with melodious vocals and a capturing essence that sticks it to your brain. Use this song to surprise any of your loved one. I don’t like Puth’s look in the mv much, he looks like a 35 year old having a mid life existential crisis and regretting corporate life and family.

Time travel

Let’s go and commit murders!

Bloganuary prompts are getting harder day by day. Today’s prompt is “If you could, what year would you time travel to and why?”

Whenever I thought about this topic, I couldn’t get any answer. There are so many things I wanted to try by time travelling. The thought of going back and forward in time is so exciting. So I stopped thinking about it.

My first stop would be the 19^th century. I want to kill this guy called Henry Fischel. Even his name is fishy. Why, you ask? He invented exams. I don’t need to explain any further than that.

I also want to kill Newton ngl. Travel to the 17^th century and stop his mom and dad from doing the deed. He wouldn’t have been on earth in the first place then. That guy just randomly decided to make laws because of an apple! I wish it were a coconut tree he would have sat down instead. Coconut drop, Newton up! If you did make laws, mention alongside that us, normal, sane students don’t need to learn these. That guy left, but after increasing our syllabus. My granny said and I quote “If you find a new pattern in something, you make laws out of it? Logic, where?” I couldn’t agree more. She understands me.

I wouldn’t even have to sustain any punishment.

Song of the day!!

Mikrokosmos by BTS. Why is the name so complicated? Anyways, this song is to lift your spirits when you feel down. The lyrics are about being free. I adore the music in this song.