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Dude 2023 is about to end in half an hour and I swear to hell if I get one more 2023 recap post by random people I’m going to lose it. Who am I kidding I already have. Since the past two weeks they are all that consist my feed and I am so fed up with the same songs and quick pictures that flash for a millisecond and you expect me to see how you spent your year? Bro I don’t even know how I spent my today!

Anygays, Bloganuary is going to start from tomorrow.

I also have an exam tomorrow. I haven’t studied at all. I’m going to do it now for a while. It is what it is. They shouldn’t have kept an exam of a core paper on fucking new year I am supposed spend time with closed ones!! We’re all hoping the datesheet setters get diarrhoea or something.

Tomorrow a new day, a new week, a new month, a new year, as well as a leap year begins. Damnnnn

Song of the day!!

Broken by Palaye Royale. A soft punk pop track with vocals expressing hurt and anguish. The chorus is written simple, the vocals and the drums make it impactful.

Exams on Sundays

I’m done man we students need to get paid

Today’s blog is going to be a rant.

I WANT TO FUCKING SLEEP WHERE ARE THE FUCKING HOLIDAYS EVERYONE TALKS ABOUT!!?

I have said this before and I will say it again, us students deserve to get paid with all the bullshit we go through to get just one fucking degree. I have been working on 2 hours of sleep for the past month. I have started to forget basic tasks like eating. How does it feel now teachers? Thank you for the ill wishes of forgetting to eat because I didn’t do your useless homework! I have started showing my id literally everywhere like I enter a shop and pull out my college id! I am showing my metro card to the security guard at stations like why!!😭😭😭 And this bullshit has to continue till January. I have an exam on the fucking new year too. I have an exam on a fucking Sunday this week like what the fuck!!? One fucking day goddammit one fucking day! There was no rest on the previous weekends because of the shitload of assignments and practicals and now you are conducting exams? OH COME ON!

And you know what this is what diminishes a student’s motivation. No matter how much one love loves the subject, at the end it always comes down to exams and grades, a cycle that never ends. It’s all that is left to “study” for

I haven’t studies for tomorrow’s exam. I have just binged random videos for an hour and do I know anything about tomorrow’s exam? No. Great. I’m done I just want to eat and sleep I’ll see what to do tomorrow. It can fuck itself.

Song of the day!!

Here’s To Never Growing Up by Avril Lavigne. I loved it as soon as it started playing. I just love the beginning part.

To be able to finally sleep

Schedule’s been hectic but the day I can sleep as much as I want is coming near.

You know I like how I have been coping with work these past few months. I have barely slept, but I am doing better than I expected. There have been so many moments when I just wanted to breakdown and never get up because it was all so overwhelming. Being in a hip hop dance crew demands a lot more toil than I expected. Add a psychology degree with it. Top it with life’s responsibilities and a terrible fate like mine. The past couple months have been a disaster. I am finally able to collect myself a bit now. I am getting through it. I am not on the extreme top of my work, but I know I can get it done. It feels like boulders have lifted off now that most of my shit is resolved. All the sacrifice of my beloved sleep and forgetting to eat will pay off. Maybe. I don’t know. But at least it will end. I can sleep then. Fuck yeah!

Song of the day!!

Good Enough by Ramzi. Melodious vocals and groovy music.

My schedule takes my decisions

I have given up on believing that I choose for myself

At times I wonder if I tell the people around me the bullshit I have going on in the daily, they will think I am making excuses. Because I just never get a break. A third person may start thinking that I am making up stories. One thing after the other, every day of mine is different and unpredictable. I can’t plan anything for the upcoming days, even the next day because life forced me to be highly spontaneous lately. Do I like changes? Yes. Do I also like control? Yes. Are my decisions in my hand or my schedule’s hand? Schedule’s. I am seriously fucked guys.

Song of the day!!

KhaliBali by Shivam Pathak & Shail Hada. A power packed track that just sticks in your mind once you hear it.

Raising my self-esteem #11

Another rant no one asked for

Now that I have gotten a new beginning in college, I am trying to make the best out of it. I am not one to get close to people easily. I am mostly indulged in my work because the pile just never ends. 4 months in and I can say that I am doing alright. I mean, the workload is a lot. Depression doesn’t just fade away because of change in circumstances. I breakdown a lot too. Then I sit to work and I remember that the 3 years younger me dreamed of this life. She wanted to study this much and work her ass off. I remember that I love this. I am doing better than I expected in the scary domain of socialising too. People know me for my work and my goofiness. I am satisfied with my reputation. I am one to get my work done. And I am one that curses a lot and always has new ways to cause trouble. A lot of times people get shocked by the bullshit I pull, then laugh. So I guess this is fine. I get along with everyone, don’t have any enemies as of now. Stupid teachers are the key to bonding with peers. I’ll carry on. I’ll do good. I’m going to ace college and get to the top.

Song of the day!!

This Is What Depression Feels Like by Marina Lin. I like the soft, cushiony support this song is. The lyrics are so resonating. The vocals must have required a lot of patience while recording.

Superficial honey

An honest rant

Like every person, I have also been in compromising positions where I have needed to plea someone for favors. This happened mostly in cases when I had to get out of trouble. But somehow, I just can’t kiss someone’s ass to get my work done. When I demand something I do it knowing where I stand and I only ask my fair share. A lot of my peers roamed behind teachers and did unnecessary chores to get grades or help or whatnot. People sugarcoat the person in power to get their shit done smoothly. It has always been difficult for me. I just cannot swing this way. Even after I plan my conversations to have my way through, words refuse to spill. It’s just not in me to tolerate people. This backfires when I have to condone people talking nonsense but can’t listen to them and end up in a conflicting position. But at least I am not dipping someone in superficial honey.

Song of the day!!

Late At Night by Roddy Ricch. Smooth, soft beats.

Some people shouldn’t be allowed to breathe

lil random rant

You ever just want to throw someone off the cliff for simply existing? That person hasn’t harmed you, but is always spewing elite bullshit. And soon you get irritated by them breathing. Like, why do you exist!!?

Song of the day!!

Dope Lovers by DPR IAN. Soft melody that stays in mind for long.

The stupid parents

Why do you make morons when you can’t handle one!?

Y’all ever look at some people and wonder how tf were they brought up? Like what kind of morons raised this delusive idiot? You don’t even blame the person at this point, you want to meet the parents and hit them on their heads because wtf did they create!? If they couldn’t afford raising a decent human being, then they should not have made one! Why did they leave this monstrosity out on he loose!?

Song of the day!!

Freak Show by Aviva & Jake Daniels. This is such a lovely, polite track!