RIP Lappy

Me & my laptop

The reason I put this link as the first thing is that I want the reader to know how much my laptop means to me. I have done loads of things to keep my Lappy safe. Since I have already told about my incident of black screen, let’s continue it from the next day.

I start my laptop the next day to take classes. It shuts down twice in 3 hours. The next day I get a black screen in between my class. I power off and on Lappy and it works fine. But since all these are signs of danger, I address my mom about the issue. She gives me the advice to call my uncle who got it repaired earlier and I do. He took the laptop on Saturday to give for repair. My mom recieves a call today on which she starts discussing about taking backup, new laptop, and such stuff. Dread sets in. What happened to my Lappy? As soon as she ended the call, I question her and that’s when she breaks it to me. My Lappy’s dead. Like the broken down, never turning on dead. Tears started welling up in my eyes. I asked what exactly happened and she told one of its rams has completely fused up. It will never come back. I seriously started crying. I am so devasted my bestie, with whom I have the most and the best memories will never come back. I had made stickers for him, hoping he would come back perfectly fine now, as a gift coz he didn’t leave me. My mum said I should be happy I will get a new laptop now. But I was in too much shock to explain her everything. I love my Lappy too much. A part of my soul has died. I know I will be alright later on, but right now, I am just sad. Sad I wouldn’t have my best buddy to talk to now, sad I wouldn’t see my black laptop bag at the top of the shelf anymore, sad my precious friend will no longer make memories with me.

This blog might be very cringy to some people and many of you will think I am over reacting. My mom and friends all are saying ‘It’s just a laptop, it will come back’. NO IT WILL NOT! You won’t understand anything until coz you had someone unlike me who shared everything with her laptop! He hung on till the end, I will too. No matter what, he would always be in my heart. He was my first laptop and my first real friend.

Can’t Help Falling in Love by Haley Reinhart. The song is a good choice if you want to practice low notes.

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Could have been worse

It all started like any other day… just like in movies. I spent my whole day doing absolutely nothing, just Wattpad. It was over 10 p.m at night. I was still reading Wattpad peacefully until I had to get up due to something. I had my phone on charge while I was reading, so when I got up, the wire got tangled in my hand and my phone fell down… just like in movies. My phone’s screen came out. Like, the whole screen literally came out. To say I was shocked was an understatement. 1. It’s my lovely phone. 2. I was in the middle of an action scene! I still kept my calm and went to my mom to tell her about it. The phone couldn’t be repaired coz of lockdown… just like in movies! So…I was stuck, with nothing to do, without Wattpad & Webtoons!!! As I was coming back to my room, just about to climb my bed, I tripped and twisted my right ankle, and when I tried to move it, it wouldn’t move…just like in movies! I called my mom and she helped me move it and walk around a bit so it doesn’t get worse. Thankfully it was just a sprain nothing much. I slept after 12 telling myself it would be ok, it isn’t that bad. I could have broken my ankle, so it isn’t the worst. The next day, I went to my grandma’s place. My lil cousin kept asking me to show him my phone coz he was curious to see how it broke and…I cried. I cried a lot. Idk how, but my thoughts went from my phone to my fucked up life to how I will pass the upcoming days without my phone which made me cry.

My elders were telling me the whole day already that I must be sad, but I tried to keep myself up and tell myself that it would be ok. But then they tell me I must be sad and frustrated and I don’t have my lovely books anyomore, and that was the last straw. I was so angry I told them all to shut the hell up and leave me alone. They laughed and said it’s because I broke my phone. I was so pissed I swear. I used their phones to do my stuff. I kept bugging all my elders from time to time and when they flipped me off, I flipped their flipping me off off and told them it’s because I broke my phone. I was telling myself that this shall too pass. I was acting maturely but no, they can’t see me calm at all! I was seriously so pissed. They knew I would need my phone because of online classes, so communication, school material and all. I can’t keep my laptop on all the time! My bae needs rest too! They got me a new phone the next day coz that phone was beyond repair. So now I have a brand new phone finally after five fucking years! Yes! I was using the same phone for 5 years which was already used 2 years by my grandma! Can you do that? I bet no!

So, moral of the story:

1. Never piss off a person who just broke their phone coz they are going through an emotional turmoil.
2. Never laugh at a person who is forced to be away from books.
3. When you go through a lot of stuff, you realize that nothing is too bad.

All in all, I can say everything could have been worse. I could have broken my ankle, I could have not gotten a new phone so soon. So I am just grateful things didn’t go down so much. They were two crazy days!

My broken phone🤍. It is stil attatched at the bottom right corner, still hanging on. My lovely bae🥲

Now onto the song of the day!!

Build a Bitch by Bella Poarch. The song is quite catchy with its upbeat music and soft-hard vocals.

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I don’t want you

You left me alone. You never say hello, you never talk to me, you never congratulate me, you never include me in anything. You never do anything except one- criticizing me. Then you expect me to celebrate my birthday with you. When I say no, you get offended and say “Why are you being so dramatic?”. Ok cool, I am being dramatic, so get lost! You don’t need to be here! You really think I would be all happy over you giving me attention? Bullshit! You never asked for me the whole time why come now? It’s my birthday, my wish how to celebrate it. I don’t want to cut a cake, I don’t want to go out, my wish! You don’t get a say in this! I don’t want your gifts or your attention! You are in fact wasting my time. So for god’s sake get the hell lost! You act like you know me but you don’t know shit! You are one of the causes of my pain, so stop acting like you are my family. You rejected me earlier, don’t come near me now! Stay away like you always do. And don’t give me the “celebration” crap coz it’s just you who wants to go out under the name of my birthday. You want to go out, go, no one’s stopping you, don’t put it under my ‘birthday celebration’ coz it’s not. You are more than welcome to walk out, I don’t care! You feel offended? Your problem. You never considered my feelings, nor you are doing now, and you really expect me to spend my day with you? I’d rather get lost in a forest, I won’t have to see you and your ‘dramatic diva’ ass!

And you know the best part? They blame you for everything when all you did was try to fit in. The say “why don’t you try more?” Oh wow! Hahahahahaha!!

To anyone who related to this even one bit, who has pent up anger and those petty people are coming to pour more oil in your fire, blast. Blow them up. Use the gift called mouth and rap like eminem. Doesn’t matter if they understand or not. They don’t care, you shouldn’t care about them either. You are pressurised? Fuck them! Only you can stand up for yourself, only you can help yourself.

Now the song of the day…

Bite by EMM. The song tells you to stand up for yourself. EMM has a uniquely captivating voice. The music and vocals in this song along with the beats and lyrics are dope. Worth listening.

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