Why don’t we have a stopclock!?

I want time to pause for a while😭😭😭

Bloganuary day 30: What do you complain about the most?

Not having time for things, without a doubt. I never have time for things nowadays. My schedule can be so intense and unpredictable, many times I am not aware of the happenings the next day. I don’t go for outings often and there are numerous instances when I had to rain check on my plans because of work. It is quite irritating at times. I don’t feel as if I am in control, rather the people around me are. My schedule sets my routine. Most of my time has been going towards my commitment to my dance crew. Too much practices and rehearsals for all the competitions lined up. At times I wonder what I would do with all the time I spend here in other places. Then comes academics. We literally just finished one semester and we have already gotten practicals and assignments for the other one, in two fucking days. The harsh reality dawned on me again today, it’s all a race for marks.

It’s very chaotic. I want time for myself. 24 hours are suddenly not enough to sleep, work, and have alone time. I want shit to calm down for some moments. I want a break. I want to drop everything and run away. I wish to close my eyes and never wake up.


Song of the day!!

The Less I Know The Better by Tame Impala. A relaxing funk track about the pros of ignorance.

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My schedule takes my decisions

I have given up on believing that I choose for myself

At times I wonder if I tell the people around me the bullshit I have going on in the daily, they will think I am making excuses. Because I just never get a break. A third person may start thinking that I am making up stories. One thing after the other, every day of mine is different and unpredictable. I can’t plan anything for the upcoming days, even the next day because life forced me to be highly spontaneous lately. Do I like changes? Yes. Do I also like control? Yes. Are my decisions in my hand or my schedule’s hand? Schedule’s. I am seriously fucked guys.


Song of the day!!

KhaliBali by Shivam Pathak & Shail Hada. A power packed track that just sticks in your mind once you hear it.

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