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Shitty exams

I just can’t deal with all of this shit anymore

I’m gonna be a jerk for saying this but bring back covid!! I’m sorry but I can’t deal with this shit anymore. I don’t want to see anyone’s face, I don’t want to go to new places and meet new people, I don’t want to write kilometers of senseless knowledge in my exams that will for sure contain out of syllabus questions. I have been studying hard but every time I attempt a sample paper, I find more and more weird ass questions that make no sense to me. They have 3 whole books to ask but they will decide to test something out of syllabus! Why!?

What hurts more is that these exams aren’t going to get us anywhere. In my country you need to give separate entrances for universities and these finals have absolutely nothing to do with your future. But because these have been going on since generations and were extremely important till 2 years ago, our reputation depends on it. Literally. Anything below 90% in these exams means that you are a useless burden to all.

That is what exams are in today’s world. There is no logic but you HAVE to run and win in the race because everyone is.

Song of the day!!

Nerves by DPR IAN. Sombre intro with reflecting, honest lyrics.

Years of studying resulted in demotivation

Why should I try if it’s always the same?

Since I turned the age enough, I have been going to school and giving exams. For 13 years, I have given academic exams regularly. One after the other. And by this point, I am exhausted. I am in my last school year with finals right around the corner and I have lost the motivation to study completely. It’s the same cycle of learning and writing. If the score is good, others are happy; if the scores are low, others are disappointed. Living in this viscious cycle has made me so exhausted that now I don’t want to study things I like. Because at the end it’s all about a marksheet. It’s the same all the time. I forget what I studied after every exam. We have no practical knowledge. The pressure of exams is never taken off. In this school year, I haven’t relaxed completely for even one day, except when I was in the hospital and too sick to even open my eyes and sit straight. Every exam day I wish to oversleep or something bad to happen so I miss the exam. Not because I am unprepared, but because exams have become annoying now. And why do you think the senior students have developed the habit of studying right before the exam? Because it is irritating to be preparing all the goddamn timeWhy shall we study so much? Why?

Song of the day!!

Tell Me How To Let Go by Rosendale. An edm track about the cycle of toxic relationships.

Fucked education system

Ok can someone please tell me why a student has to make 15 projects and give 7 term exams along with regular assignments in one academic year!? WHY!!??? We aren’t machines nor do we have all the time in the world to do useless things that aren’t gonna be of any help in the future. We spend 17 years of our life in a school that does nothing but give us work and we aren’t even paid for it! And the worst part is that you absolutely CANNOT risk to fall back, especially in Senior year because the central university cut off is literally 100%! You ain’t shit if you have 99%, you need to have a full aggregate if you want admission anywhere! And honestly this is too much. Good colleges barely have any seats these days and these kinds of requirements are too much.

Somg of the day!!

Midnight Rain by taylor Swift. I like how it soothes my ears as soon as I play it. Live the theme and tbh this song is so relatable to me.

Rivalries & unity

School days be hittin’ different

School’s been interesting these days. There was almost a fight yesterday between to guys. I was shouting, “Fight ! fight!” But nothing happened.

Yesterday, some girls I am on quite good terms with, wrote quite a lotta interestingly indecent stuff on the extremely clean wall along with our batch number and initials. Ofc everyone saw, but no one said anything when our class teacher ragingly asked us. Apparently we were all outside at that time.

My class is full of typical backbenchers and cabinet members. Yet nothing is ever reported to any teacher. What happens in class, stays in class. We do have internal conflicts but they are soon forgotten. Most of us never talk, I don’t even know all my classmates; Yet in crisis we have each others’ backs. The unspoken rule of “Snitches get stitches” and collective hate towards school kinda binds us together. No other section is like us. They are all snobby toppers in need of extra points for which they sell their friends. There are a few extremely immature and indecent folks though who are annoying af.

I thought for a moment that next year I won’t have this as well. As much as I don’t like going to school due to crowd, it’s a place of memories. I hate crowds everywhere I go, but I won’t witness fights and betrayals and gossips everywhere.

Song of the day!!

Backwards by Alexander Stewart. The vocals in this one along with the music make this my all time favorite.