pressure – mysticalsoulblogs

Free time in college? Lmao

Not when you are part of a dance crew, fuck no

A lot of people around me tell me that student life is supposed to be enjoyable and there is no work to do and so on. I’m sorry what?? Free time? No work? Enjoy all the time? Are we living in different dimensions? I have been working my ass off since joining college? I have lost interest in watching any animes or movies because I never have any time. I am editing my research papers while travelling, wtf do you mean there is freedom in college life? It takes me 3 days to complete one episode of an anime because I only watch it while having meals which lasts only around 5 minutes. People tell me I should take out time to watch movies and go for walks. And I’m like if I had the time then I’d be catching up on my sleep but here I am, with dark circles, aching mood, and a tired af body! Just one week more. One more week till I have to pull all nighters to finish my practicals. I’ll catch up on sleep during exam leaves. Just you wait practical assessments, just you wait.🔪

Song of the day!!

SLAY! by Eternxlkz. This one has an intense yet chill vibe to it.

High School is finally over

Done. Gone. Chapter closed. Finally.

After months of diving in books, I am free from academic exams for a few months!!! It’s like a boulder has lifted off. “Academic exams” because I have a lot of other exams going on that life is taking from me. There is a lot that needs to be done and I am finally stepping into this new phase of my life which I hope is nothing but better.

Not having the constant academic pressure feels way more better than I expected. The never ending pile of work has vanished and I don’t have to worry about what to finish today and how much is left. I was burning out from all this. By the end I had given up studying. I was so done. Now I can binge watch and read without any pressure, which feels awesome!

I have received all sorts of documents and certificates from school, so I can officially say that I have graduated high school!

Song of the day!!

Better For You by Mario & Empire Cast. Sweet lyrics about heart with soft vocals and pleasant music.

Pressured fishes

“Why do some fish only survive in surface water of the ocean and some in the deep waters? Is there something related to the oxygen levels?”

Not exactly. It is more of a pressure thing. Remember that physics lecture where you learned that the higher the altitude, the lower the pressure?

Many fishes are designed biologically in a way that they only survive in low pressure and hence stay at the surface. Same goes for the fishes living at the depths of the ocean. Like humans, fishes live in places where the outer environmental pressure matches their internal body pressure. A fish’s gills also work differently at different altitudes.

These conditions can be hereditary or adapted. There are a ton of species so of course there are complexities too, hence a lot of details which I am not interested in covering. Thank you.

Song of the day!!

Devil is a Woman by Cloudy June. Careful vocals with awesome music. The effects have been planned so well.

Years of studying resulted in demotivation

Why should I try if it’s always the same?

Since I turned the age enough, I have been going to school and giving exams. For 13 years, I have given academic exams regularly. One after the other. And by this point, I am exhausted. I am in my last school year with finals right around the corner and I have lost the motivation to study completely. It’s the same cycle of learning and writing. If the score is good, others are happy; if the scores are low, others are disappointed. Living in this viscious cycle has made me so exhausted that now I don’t want to study things I like. Because at the end it’s all about a marksheet. It’s the same all the time. I forget what I studied after every exam. We have no practical knowledge. The pressure of exams is never taken off. In this school year, I haven’t relaxed completely for even one day, except when I was in the hospital and too sick to even open my eyes and sit straight. Every exam day I wish to oversleep or something bad to happen so I miss the exam. Not because I am unprepared, but because exams have become annoying now. And why do you think the senior students have developed the habit of studying right before the exam? Because it is irritating to be preparing all the goddamn timeWhy shall we study so much? Why?

Song of the day!!

Tell Me How To Let Go by Rosendale. An edm track about the cycle of toxic relationships.