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A Schizophrenic Psychologist?

Sounds bad but sort of makes sense??

We have heard of schizophrenic painters, depressed scientists and mathematicians and all. What if we have a schizophrenic psychologist?

Hear me out.

A schizophrenic psychologist will know what it is really like to have schizophrenia. As a doctor and a researcher, this guy will be able to relate to patients. With his expertise, he will be able to create effective managing strategies, probably the best. Of course, he will require a team for this. He has to manage himself and work, which is only possible if he himself is not severely impacted. Maybe his teammates can put him in observation without meds to see how he is working to research further and develop safer environments for all schizophrenic patients. Maybe create an establishment that supports the patients by providing healthcare, therapy, regular medical checkups, work opportunities, etc.

Song of the day!!

Afghan Jalebi by Pritam & Akhtar Chinnal. I have loved this track since its release. A must listen.

Why does the uterus feel heavy during periods?

A bit of discussion on a crucial aspect of life.

Yesterday I noticed the fact that my uterus feels heavy during periods. I don’t get much cramps but have this constant heaviness especially during heavy flow days that makes my legs and back hurt if I stand too long without support.

I looked it up and damn the internet is a crazy mess.
Pro tip: if you are unable to find something but are sure there must be information somewhere, change you sentence form.

Anyways, back to the topic.

One may feel the uterus to be quite heavy like me because of the high blood flow. A lot of blood is collected, along with the lining dumped from the walls. The heaviness in the whole of torso is also because of the hormones released during that time. Also, your uterus may or may not get a bit bigger during periods to accommodate all the junk, but it is not a major difference, barely anything tbh. A lot of women don’t even notice any heaviness. There isn’t anything to worry about for this.

But if you have severe cramps, body aches, excessive bleeding, or extremely noticeable heaviness then please consult a doctor. I have mentioned this in one of my previous blogs also, but experiencing excruciating pain is not normal!

All the links I went through:

Song of the day!!

Sometimes I Want 2 Die by Blackbear. More like all the time I wanna die for me lol. A heavy track for those who relate with comforting music.

How do fillings work?

And what if we could patch up our injuries all over the body with them?

I have had my cavities filled and from what I have noticed, the dentist puts a cotton like thing dipped in some sweet adhesive to fill the area eroded.

But like how do they work? They are as strong as teeth but also erode over time. Can we use them in other areas of our bodies? Put fillings in the body wherever there is any injury? It would be kind of cool tbh, but not as effective. The body wouldn’t heal itself and what if someone is allergic to the chemicals? Would there be different kinds of body fillings suitable for different injuries for different people?

If someone invents something like this then please give me credit!

Song of the day!!

@ my worst by Blackbear. This one is not the cliché “waiting for the right person” song. It’s about having the right one but being so broken that you cause them pain. A beautiful track with production that couldn’t be more perfect.

I lose focus with my eyes shut

When people get tired and lose focus, they close their eyes and take deep breaths. I used to do the same. Yet lately, it works to my disadvantage Even if I am not breathing deeply, my body shuts down and my head starts swaying like my neck isn’t enough support. I lose my focus even more than before. My brain stops working and my body comes to a rest. I seem to get lost in the darkness surrounding me. My body feels heavy, yet like it is floating. It is only when my eyes are open, I have control over myself.

Does anybody know why?

Song of the day!!

Flowers by Miley Cyrus. After listening to its clips everywhere, I finally heard the full song lol. The song is about leaving worthless relationships and loving yourself.

I have Pharmacophobia

I have a fear of medicines that I developed a year back.

Okay so I have pharmacophobia, that is, fear of medicines. I hate the sight, smell, taste, everything of medicines. Even if they’re sealed. I hate them. They make me nauseous and just thinking about them make me jittery.

I developed this fear a year ago. I ate 42 painkillers to poison myself. The aftermath was quite ugly and some will be traumatised reading it online so I won’t share that. But somehow I didn’t die, nor is any of my organs malfunctioning or shit. My body is still completely normal. After that though, I started fearing medicines. My former therapist didn’t understand my fear and forced me to consult a psychiatrist when I wasn’t ready, which I didn’t because I am stubborn like that. My mom doesn’t understand anything either. For her I am just a brat, nothing new.

Now, I have been extrememely sick for a week. The kind of sick that one has to take repeated trips to the doctor and the hospital. Of course I was prescribed a shit load of antibiotics. For someone who refused to eat a painkiller during any sort of ill health, this is quite a big deal. My cycle is almost finished, but now I am at the verge of spilling my guts out. My health will get worse because of medicines at this point. I won’t be able to cope for long. I feel like I will vomit everytime I think of all those tablets, even right now as I am writing this.

Treatments for pharmacophobia prescribe that the patient can take medicines in the clinic to feel at ease that the pills won’t murder them. For me, I am gonna break if I have any more pills. I don’t care if they’re gonna murder me. I just don’t want to be reminded of my past events. For me, there is a negative, nauseating aura surrounding these and I am not ready to face it. Of course its an irrational fear but that is what a phobia is. I tried hard to overcome it but as soon as I am done with this treatment, I am back to square one- no medicines in my vicinity. I hate to even touch my medicine packet.

Song of the day!!

Bring It On by Deep Valley. I like the music alot, pumps up the mood while working.

Fever without fever

Push me away but my firе still burns~
Turn to ash but the flame still rises~
Like a fever, fever, fever~

Is it possible to have fever symptoms but normal temparature at the same time? Yes. In fact I barely ever get fever but have the symptoms often. It can be due to some underlying medical condition, side effects of medication, hormonal changes if you are going through a peak development phase, and even a stressful lifestyle. For me, it always starts with a soar throat and aching ears. My ears and throat are sensitive and if something happens to them, my whole body goes down. Mitochondria who? My throat is my powerhouse.

Song of the day!!

Call by Reggie Becton. A cute little R&B track about still missing someone who left. On listening carefully, you’ll realise it conveys feelings of a person in closet and in love with their homie with whom the relationship has started to strain.

(Song in excerpt: Fever by Enhypen)

Headache = death?

Welcome to another stupid, crazy rant about my imagination!

Am I stupid for thinking some nerve in my head snapped because of a terrible headache?

See, I have never got a severe injury in my life, despite all the crazy shenanigans I have pulled. So sometimes I think that maybe it’s all because of a reason. Maybe I will have an accident that will lead me to almost dying, or dying. (Please let it be the latter, please let it be the latter!)

I have been having a terrible headache since I woke up today. I slept through so many classes. I came back and slept immediately after having my lunch. I never take meds but I did put my roll-on over the hurting areas. I could still feel the pain, even in my sleep. I woke up 3 hours later without any effects. I felt a particular muscle/nerve/whatever the hell it is called hurting and wondered, “What if this nerve has snapped?” This led me to imagining me fainting during the exam tomorrow and the doctor exclaiming “How the hell was she able to survive this long with a broken nerve?” and everybody calling me a genius or shit.

Makes sense? A bit to me, because why not? If I can be exempted from any exam, I will gladly follow the path.

But reality is a bitch.

My headache has decreased a bit, but I am very dizzy. I have to learn for my exam but it is so hard to not drop my head.

I personally feel that it is because of all the stress I have been taking. Music, internships, colleges, entrances, exams, projects, notes, people…maybe it’s all this. Maybe not.

Idk I just want to sleep but cannot because I have to learn 30 pages right now. So bye-bye!

Song of the day!!

Naina Da Kya Kasoor by Ayushmann Khurrana & Amit Trivedi. A fun, light song to put you in a good mood. I like the lively vocals-they give dimension to the music.