achievement – mysticalsoulblogs

Always hungry for more

More from life, and more of ice cream

It hit me today, how I am quite much living the life I wanted at some point. Four years back, I started dreaming about a new life in which I would be a responsible, independent, and busy psychology student pursuing all the extra-curriculars she wanted. I wanted to have a life where I’d be working day and night for my passions. I never imagined this life in detail, just knew that it would be hard but peaceful. And presently, I sort of have that. While writing another research paper, it hit me how this is what I wanted to do at some point in life. I am going to so many places these days because of dance competitions, I am working through nights to complete my practicals and assignments, I know people in various book communities to hang with, and I am balancing between house chores, studies, work, and dance. While I am not excelling at everything like fictional people do, I am liking this life. It gets tiring and irritating way too often, but at the end I am reminded that I got through my past life dreaming about going through this life. And now I am dreaming of a more fulfilling life where I will be focusing on my career as a writer more and hustle for that. I am preparing myself to achieve this goal. I want more.

Song of the day!!

Pick Up The Phone by Henry Moodie. I like how the rhythm in this song gradually picks up and gives a refreshing element to the well-toned vocals.

2 years & more to go!

Thank you to this website for existing

Okay so this website is now 2 years old. The anniversary was yesterday but I was just so busy I barely checked my phone and missed the notification.

But…happy birthday to themysticalsoulblogs! A big piece of my tiny soul!

5 years ago I should have died. 2 years ago was my od attempt that has now made me terrified of medicines. I created this website as a diary for the world to read. Let me just look at it and wonder how I am still here. I mean, I have come far ahead. And I didn’t take a single break this year! the first year I went on a short hiatus because my mind was struggling too much. This year whatever the fuck happened, and a lot happened btw, I did not miss a single day! Even when the the world was going up in flames, or when I was in the hospital, or when I wanted to die…never did I fail to upload a post and I am so fucking proud of me for it!

I don’t really have much to share, I share stuff everyday. But I just need you to say happy birthday to my baby because this child is everything!

Song of the day!!

November Rain by Guns N’ Roses. Such a calm and soothing track with deep lyrics.

What tf am I doing with my life!?

Bloganuary just arrived and it has started messing with me -_-

Bloganuary is here and I am excited!

Day 1: What is something you want to achieve this year?

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Why? WHY? Why would you put this as the first prompt!? I get the logic but noooo😭😭😭😭

I have a little idea of how this year will go. I’ll complete school and enter uni. I want to join martial arts classes and singing classes too. But do I have any idea of how I am gonna do everything? Absolutely not. Which is the reason for my tears.

Last night I had a little call with my friends and as soon as I put my phone down, all that circled my head was how nice it would be to die. I don’t feel any change as people do after new year, nor do I have any resolutions. I have never made new year resolutions because I know they are pointless. I do what I want at the moment.

The point is that I have no clue what, and IF I want to achieve something. That’s just what depression does to you.

I’m sorry if this ain’t a light, funny, or inspirational blog you may have expected it to be but I don’t write lies. This is what it is for me.

Song of the day!!

Paralyzed by NF. A song about the feeling of numbness that I relate to on a very personal level.