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The heavy pillows under my head…

…or maybe in my head.

It feels heavy. Not much, only a little. I can still function and complete my chores. Though my eyelids are starting to droop. The pain in my feet suddenly magnifies, and every sound around turns more intense, as of everything is happening in my ears only. The light is too bright and cushions too hard. A vision of a white bed made of feathers pops in my head, so comfortable it must be…so far it must be.

Song of the day!!

Paradise by Bazzi. Well mixed harmonies to temporarily take the listener in another world.

When life gives you a knife and two lemons

Which lemon do you cut first?

I’m tired.

Not a surprise you have been busy since the morning.

I know. I have more to do though, no rest as of now.

Why don’t you just quit?

Quit what? Studying? Hell no,

Quit dancing. It takes a hell lot of your time and energy.

But I like it, why should I quit?

It takes almost all of your waking hours to train. You are always exhausted and you have a career to focus on than pursuing a hobby.

But life would be empty without this daily chaos. It’s a bliss for me to be doing what I am doing right now. I am balancing things quite well. My studies aren’t left behind much, and I haven’t taken up any internships or jobs to not burden myself, so I guess it’s going good.

Exactly. You are not doing anything other than dance and study. When was the last time that you wrote? When you researched properly and wrote something, or maybe continued your book? Your resume has been dead in this department, are you expecting to build a career like this? With average marks? Your field requires constant toil. You have to focus on this than a mere hobby.

I mean, yes my career is my priority, but I only have these couple years to explore this side of the fence too.

Then do so alone. Don’t stop dancing, but reduce the time you spend on it everyday. There are a lot of things to do and you know you have been giving dance much more priority than it needs. You have responsibilities to fulfill.

I don’t want to miss out though.

You have gathered enough experience by now. You know how things work and you have learned a lot. You have to work on your own to improve, which you can do alone. You can miss out on the drills here but not the steps that will make your career. You cannot afford to dedicate yourself to an activity that will take you off-track. Wake up.

Song of the day!!

Dirty Thoughts by Chloe Adams. It’s the vocals in this song that make it good.

I want the ticking to stop

Y’all ever just wish for time to stop? I do. A lot. I don’t want to stop, I want to keep going. I want time though. I want to slow down a bit. I want to not always be in a rush and rest for a while. For which I need to finish my work. I need all the clocks in the world to stop for a while so that I can get my shit done. I want to relish this. I want to sit and breathe. I want to not interact with anyone for a little while. No conversation of any sort with anyone. A little while so I can sleep and the world doesn’t rush ahead.

Song of the day!!

Aimed to Kill by Jade LeMac. From the beginning to the end, you know they worked mindfully on this track.