Playgirl? Nah. Play Ludo? Yes!

Now I want to play games even though I should be studying

Bloganuary day 2: Do you play in your daily life? What says “playtime” to you?

I play games a lot. Indoors as well as outdoors. Though outdoor games have reduced considerably for me. I don’t have anyone to play with, and I barely have time to go cycling anymore as well.

As for indoors, I play ludo a lot with my grandmother whenever I visit her. She has trained me since I was a kid and now no one else in the family prefers playing with us because they know they’re going to lose.

But mostly I play video games, not surprisingly. I love playing valorant but haven’t touched it in weeks! I used to play action and racing games a lot. Loved gta vice city and halo infinte until that computer was sold and it costs money to buy games which I won’t play much because of my busy fucking schedule. When I tell you I was an absolute pro at cyber hunter, I’m not kidding because I am never usually a pro, just a noob or casual. Then it got banned in my country and I miss it. Call of Duty is a large app with way too many updates and students always lack phone storage so had to delete it too. Now I mostly play small arcade games that only require 3-7 minutes because I usually don’t have more time than that and I feel guilty when wasting so much time (but I do it anyway!) My friends and I play card games a lot, we play online games too like pictionary and geoguessr. Geoguessr is a fun yet infuriating game because how tf am I supposed to find the exact location by one picture and why does the game’s spelling miss an ‘e’?

Playtime for me has always meant free time away from studies. When young, I was told that if I finished my homework I’ll get my playtime, which for me meant tv time or playing games on mom’s Facebook time or actual going to the park play time. Play time is basically free time you get to do whatever you want, simple. Because I’m a nerd I finished all my work in school so when I got back, all the time left was playtime, except when mom decided to put me down for maths. Fuck maths.


Song of the day!!

She’s An Actor by Austin Georgio. A song for those hiding their mental health.

© Copyright to @mysticalsoul5 (mysticalsoulblogs). All rights reserved.

Nothing stops the destructive tendencies

This one’s a light hearted one, promise

Like any other kid, I used to bite my nails all the fucking time. To the point the tips of my fingers would hurt due to the nail being torn off. My elders tried a lot to get rid of this habit. I recall how they applied a nail paint looking clear liquid on my nails which was actually just a non toxic, distasteful chemical made to stop one from biting their nails. It’d didn’t work. I chewed off that invisible nail polish (that’s what I used to call it then, I found its true identity years later) too. I was always being nagged by my elders for this habit. Even my peers and my teachers started calling me out. Then my stomach started to hurt badly for no reason. The doctor immediately enquired if I bit my nails. I was given quite an amount of medicines. Did this finally make me stop? Only for a little while. I’d take care to not let my hands near my mouth at any time. Then one day I rediscovered the magic of biting nails. It hasn’t stopped till now.

“Let the child burn her hand so she doesn’t play with fire” logic doesn’t work with me. I’m not gonna stop. Metaphorically, and literally. Fire is beautiful of course I’m going to burn shit up.

Why have I suddenly written this blog? I chewed my right thumb way too much, so now it is hurting terribly.


Song of the day!!

Youngblood by 5 Seconds of Summer. A song about being confused in relationships. Awesome beats and vocals. This band is my therapy.

© Copyright to @mysticalsoul5 (mysticalsoulblogs). All rights reserved.

New Tech is Taking Away the Fun

The upcoming generation won’t know the fun of achieving tv time

I think everyone loves talking about their favorite cartoons and shows. People call me too old to be a kid but I love cartoons. I binged Doraemon and Teen Titans for around 3 hours today. I am never gonna get tired of cartoons.

But I am sad for the generation that is currently living their childhood. I have talked about how today’s new cartoons destroy the kids’ brains in one of my previous blogs. I wonder how these kids’ nostalgic convos would sound like. “You remember how daddy finger was sung on cocomelon?” I’m grateful I never watched this shit. How can people bond over this? People flex on how they could watch Courage the Cowardly Dog at night, not sharks.

These kids would never experience the joy of waiting desperately to watch your favorite show. I used to set my routine according to my favorite shows on tv. I would stay up late or wake up super early just to watch it. That adrenaline rush we would get when we would run to fetch water or use washroom in the middle of a show after waiting for a break for so long. And that irritation when someone gives you an urgent chore in the middle of your favorite show. These people can simply play and pause anytime they want. I am glad I am not in their place.


Song of the day!!

Come Alive by Jackson Wang. This one gives me 2000s vibes with electrical jazz music.

© Copyrighted to @mysticalsoul5 (mysticalsoulblogs). All rights reserved.

I’m a kid tbh

Am I making up for my lost childhood?

At times I wonder if I am making up for my lost childhood by being what people call “childish.” I am a person who has gone through quite a lot, surviving through abusive environments since the start. I grew up keeping others before me.

But I’m not going to elaborate on that right now. What I have noticed in me, is that I get happy with small things. I feel ecstatic in receiving any kind of gift,- glitter pens, accessories or sippers, anything! I make funny hairstyles a lot. Imagine a 17 year old roaming around in two pigtails and cute clips.💀 I jump around often and am mystified by cotton candies, with sparkly eyes and a big ‘woww’.

My friends call me the child of the group because I let my intrusive thoughts win. If I want to pose like I am a ninja who knocked down a bottle without touching it, I will. I once complained to one of my friends like a baby that another one tore my Rj themed sticky note. When people think of the smartest and dumbest person in the group, it’s me.

I like finding entertainment and pleasure in little things. It’s stimulating. I am not sure if it is just gratitude or the joy of finally getting what I always wanted. But I am kinda glad to have this quality. People usually don’t appreciate the small things in life. But I am not people. I am a secret agent from another galaxy who is on a mission to research on humans’ lifestyle by being one of them and finding dirt to ultimately destroy them so that nature could be in peace.


Song of the day!!

All The Stars by Kendrick Lamar & SZA. A pleasant track that is a must for being in the playlist. It’s calming.

© Copyrighted to @mysticalsoul5 (mysticalsoulblogs). All rights reserved.

Design a site like this with WordPress.com
Get started