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Motw

Gotta see this before quitting my shift on earth

I wouldn’t change my love for her

There was this girl with the most beautiful eyes…

If you have read my blogs, you would know I am not a very informed person on the topic of emotions. I suck at this feelings shit. And you also know that I am a bisexual girl who fell for her straight best friend who didn’t care about me.

I have been reading this beautiful book called The Woman My Grandmother Loved by @shortgirlbigbook on Wattpad and there was this little paragraph that just zoomed in to cause a flood.

I read it once. I read it twice. I read it thrice. The whole book enchants me but this part made my thoughts spiral.

It took me a lot of time and courage to admit that I was in love with her. I still question it at times. Reading this paragraph, I wondered how I would not change anything if I had the chance. I would not want it to be anyone else to fall for, no matter if someone else would have been better or would have cared for me. I would have chosen that brown eyed girl who whined to me any day. I knew what I was getting into, yet I didn’t stop myself. She had me under a spell. There was a lot of pain, but there were her eyes too. Reading this book, I was reminded of how I used to look at her, with so much awe. Listening to her ramble endlessly, being jealous when seeing her getting close to others. I remember how I had to control myself to not kiss her. Even though the pain was too much more than the love, I wouldn’t change it.

Oh how I’d love to dance with her in the silent night with the wind blowing our hair. I would have held her close and taken it all in while staring in her sparkly eyes I have still ingrained in my head.

But alas, reality is never nice so that goes down the drain.

Yes I have moved on. But at times I do wish to live in these fantasy realms. I love being me and I don’t want to be in relationships but I still wanna stare at my lover with adoration as they tell me about their day.

It’s hard for me to admit. It’s very hard. But here I lay these thoughts down, for this is my place.

Song of the day!!

There You Go by Jamie Fine. A pleasant upbeat love track that I would have sung for her, if she cared.

Motw

No hate to all Christians but you know who

Motw

Me whenever someone mentions the word straight to me

Respecting opinions & tolerating bullshit are different

Unfortunately people these days don’t see any line between them

I have been trying hard to open up and converse with people. I have made some online “friends” (not friends but I like talking to them).

I am trying to be as honest as I can and not try to fit in. In fact, I had this fight with my tuition group I mentioned a few days ago and I ended up leaving it.

Some of them started putting is communalist remarks and derogatory comments about religion other than theirs. I asked them thrice to stop but they didn’t so I said that this is a dealbreaker for me and left. Two of them contact me immediately asking what happened and one of them (male) started saying even more derogatory things and that girls like me are the reason rapes happen. I showed him his place don’t worry. The other person said it’s not a big deal to have such extremist opinions.

Then three more people who were not online at the time of this conversation contacted me later and understood where I was coming from. They wanted me back but I cannot join a group with such narrow minded, egoistic jerks. I am not looking for such a low company. If I stay with them then it would mean I condone their behavior, which I do not. What surprises me is that two of them are in touch with me. At least today. Gotta wait and see how this goes. They aren’t mad or upset with me and we talk casually.

One of them is not a big supporter of the queer community, says he doesn’t get the concept. Which I understand coz our country is hella backwards in these matters. People fight over religion, gender and sexual equality are far away. When he told me about this I said I am bisexual and pride month is going on. This was deadass hilarious.
Some people may say that I shall instantly break up because not supporting means being homophobic but this won’t work unless we have proper education and awareness on the topic. I can’t expect people to suddenly be open minded or understand things or not be weirded out. I told him he will get used to it and he doesn’t have anything to do with my sexuality anyway. We are chill.

We need to be patient in this fight too. Fight for the laws, be patient for the society. But that doesn’t mean you endure insults and discrimination.

Song of the day!!

Get No Better 2.0 by Serayah. An upbeat track with skilled mixing about shining over them haters.

Educational establishments don’t give a shit

Honest tagline: “You don’t matter, your marks do”

One of the many things I hate about schools is that they care only about their reputation. An educational institution is meant to educate people. But they don’t take in people who don’t know much. They take people who are already on top of everything. It doesn’t make any sense. To keep the scoresheet, they forget the true motive behind the establishment.

The world works in a way that a person has to spend most of their first 20-25 years in educational institutes. It’s required that their safety is ensured. But is it? Yes on paper, no in reality. While all of them claim to help students going through tough time, stopping any misconduct or bullying, no one does anything. The authorities are of no use and the sooner a person realises this, the better. Barely any establishments take their students’ needs into account.

Mental health only exists till workshops. Why would they bother to take it into account? They want long scoresheets and that can only be achieved if they make the students give hundreds of exams. Not if they really think and device plans that include academics, sports and extra-curriculars in a practical manner. No. They need memory cards.

And then comes Montana with its absolutely degrading and horrendous bill of legalising bullying for trans kids. Absolutely disgusting.

Honestly this bill is screaming backwardness because of its idiocy. Why is it hard for people to call someone by the name they want to be called with? What y’all don’t have memory? Or y’all don’t have brains to understand the simple fact of MINDING YOUR OWN FUCKING BUSINESS!? It is so infuriating that they think they can suppress people because they are scared to have open minds and reflect that they can’t change nature. If someone identifies as trans then they are trans and nothing can change that. If I identify as female then I am female! You do not get to dictate me over WHO I AM! KEEP YOUR FILTHY BRAINS & MOUTHS TO YOURSELF!

Song of the day!!

Ready For It? by Taylor Swift. I really like how the power packed vocals are incorporated with carefully produced music.

India criminalised same sex marriage

Someone is banning abortions, someone is banning same sex marriage. The world is evolving backwards.

So the Apex Court of India passed a judgement yesterday that has caused the whole country to be enraged. They criminalised same sex marriage.

After abolishing the Article 377 that criminalised same sex intercourse, they have penalised same sex marriage. What is this, bungee jumping?

A plea had been going on since long regarding this matter and yesterday the Supreme Court fucked it up. Although there is a next hearing in April, they are inclined towards this decision only as same sex marriage is “against the order of nature.”

They also banned transgender folks, gays, female sex workers, persons with multiple sex partners, and drug injectors from donating blood. This is what infuriates me the most. The court argued that it is for precautionary measure.

I can see the logic behind banning drug injectors, but others? No. Everyone is tested beforehand so why?!

The pleader argued that such exclusion based on one’s gender identity and sexual orientation is “completely arbitrary, unreasonable, and discriminatory and also unscientific.” Since the blood is tested for infectious diseases like AIDS/ HIV, Hepatitis C, and B; permanently excluding persons based on their sexual preference violates their right to equality. And I couldn’t agree more.

I genuinely have no idea why they are doing this. They took one step towards progress and now they have taken two steps backwards. I really thought things will start looking up for the community. I hope all the public protests and petitions come in play and reverse this decision. Fingers crossed.

Song of the day!!

Happier by Ridi. Awesome club beats with poetic lyrics and definitely-worked-hard vocals.

Interpride: Worldpride

I wanna go to Sydney but I have exams

I just got to know that there is an international organisation called INTERPRIDE that brings together Pride foundations, organisations and communities to hold pride celebrations and events at maximum capacity.

Every 2-3 years, they hold a Worldpride. An event consisting of pride parades, festivals, fairs, conferences, etc. to promote visibility of the queer community.

“At the 1997 world conference and general meeting, InterPride members voted to award the inaugural WorldPride to be held in Rome in 2000.“
Yup, they have been at it since decades.

This year, the world will witness the 8^th Worldpride at Sydney, Australia, first one in the Southern Hemisphere. The featured image above is the Sydney Opera House lit up in the Pride Progress Flag to mark the event’s opening.

The event is from 17 Feb to 5 March. So if you’re in Australia or somewhere nearby and can afford to join, do attend it.

One thing that I can guarantee you is that no festival/event/party matches the level of that of the queers. The amount of loving vibes you get there is overwhelming.

You can also donate money at their website if you want. Here is the link.

And here is the link for Sydney’s Worldpride. You know, specific website so people don’t get confused.

Song of the day!!

Back 2 The Streets by Ann Marie. A groovy track about respecting and keeping yourself first.